Wednesday, July 25, 2007

Passion rules the Game

So its me again. coz I am the only one doing nthng as of now. sunny is in pune, living his dream at bajaj auto. Rohan has also strted with his job, looking pretty decent as of now. So tat leaves me and Junaid as we say always bekaar, lukkha and what not.....

Most of these days have been spent by me doing nthng, sitting and just dreaming of big things, lots of money, lots of places to go to, lots of lists already exist in my mind of "to do things"....

Life has been on a roller coaster ride in the past few days. From good news tat I am still being considered for automation department to the news tat I cannot be absorbed into process control. Then came a super shock, when a candid chat in the canteen turned out to b an interview.....what is the freq vs current response of a rlc series circuit.....total bouncer....still managed to crack it.....all because of those basics tat are considered trivial.....anyways...managed to crack it somehow..

Then came the hardest part....waiting ...waiting...waiting for a reply....mentally preparing myself for the worst news and the good one as well.....was almost drained out of all energy waiting for a reply.....what if they say NO....every assurance I gave to myself and got from friends and mom....had that end....what if NO...being so close still if I dont make it....it will b harder to go to tech mahindra than before....back then there were no options and all thru the final year I somehow prepared myself to go to TM for a year or so....

Finally the news came...drives and motion control dept....was happy...but was kind of prepared for that news...so not surprised.....but mom was very tensed and I saw her crying after a long time when the news came in....the feeling was just awesome...kind of the same when i got the news of getting electronics engg at RAIT....and I knew now the time has come....its upto me now....I make it or break it....and I know I will make it the way I want it to be....

And in the past days I saw a documentary on Mclaren Mercedes F1 team....extensive footages and interviews of Mclaren drivers Alonso and Hamilton and boss Ron Dennis..was so moved by the whole story of Lewis Hamilton....when a 8 year kid goes to a ceo(Ron Dennis) on stage and pulls his pants and tells him..." i have just won the british junior championship....and one day i would like to drive your car"....and what a journey it has been since then for him...he is 22 now and has been racing for the past 13 years....and i am 22 now and driving INDICA occasionally.....well srry, no over ambitious comparisons

He and his father saw a dream, one day lewis will drive a F1 car....and they saw it when lewis was 6.....and there has been no black driver in motoracing's 50 years of existence....and they worked towards it...It was a pact....lewis will pursue his dream but not let studies suffer and dad will work two jobs, one for the household and one for his son's dream....to build him go karts....

Ron Dennis gave him his chance when he was 9.....he won, they paid for his studies and racing.....Ron dennis says " when i met him as a child....he spoke more thru his eyes than his mouth....they said it all" ....the most striking line in the whole documentary was when Ron says for Lewis" he is confidence devoid of arrogance".....

All this comes down to one thing....a tear in lewis's fathers eye when his son was on podium in his first ever F1 race....the dream accomplished....and what a way they did it.....

As for me, the chase towards the dream begins shortly....standing on a formula 1 podium as a team engineer....but the Q remains...who will be the one shedding a tear??????

Friday, July 06, 2007

A Saucerful of ?????????

Long time since I posted smthng here......the last one by sunny was really nice......

Frankly speaking I was too bored to write smthng.....just lazing for the past whole month...I was expecting rohan to write smthng here....but he is lazier than me....

This post is not abt anythng in particular....so will not match up to the standards of this blog.

Lot of thngs going on in the past few days.....

Interview with siemens....was a big learning experience..

Matheran trip.....very close to the goa trip...was a really cherished experience

Daily outings with coll friends.....nerul station hang outs.....probably the last few days of freedom and fun....

Few quotes by friends....prasad said on last exam day...." apne liye jeene wale din shayad khatam ho gaye"....will always remember tat coz at tat very moment i was thinking our days have just strted.....prasad again" duniya ek medical store hai aur main aaj dosti ki goli khaa ke aaya hoon"....maan really feel like killing him sometimes...kitna pakata hai yaar

So many plans to spend money when i finally strt earning....I find myself making a list of restaurs where I wanna eat....things I wanna buy....parties I wanna give.....gifts I wanna buy for ppl.....and in distant future CARS I wanna buy

Sunny finally leaving mumbai....the first among us to strt his job...hope he achieves all tat he wants to...

Prasad and Rohan finally got their calls....all of my friends stay in Mumbai....except Nair and Charu.....really sad when I thnk of this...I hope v never find it difficult to find time for each other....

Lots of new music in the last few days....mainly Pink Floyd and Led Zeppelin.....dont feel like listening to anything else other than Floyd these days.....they are like GOD himself teaching u abt different aspects of life....the medium here is music...

Just realised a few days ago....so many common members between Pink Floyd and Ayn Rand community on orkut....two different takes on LIFE, but the ideology is the same.....

Didnt get chance to have vodka for the past 2 months almost.....waiting.....:(

My mom and bro gng crazy abt this Art Of Living Thing....and driving me crazy with their pravachan all day long.....no ways will i ever go to tat place.....the whole idea just feels disgusting to me.....how can someone else teach u "THE ART" of living your life...wat have u done all ur life if u dont know how to live it?????????

Thinking for the past few days....do we really mean when we say ..."we will be friends forever"...."i am always there for u"....and if we are not sure of whats gng to happen the next day why do we give these false assurances to others and ourselves????

Is guilt the only way u can make a person confess to his true self.....Is guilt the only link between u and ur conscience???? Have we stooped down to such a level tat we tlk to our conscience only when we feel guilty about something?????

Isn't the desire to take up the hardest challenge and beat it, a confession of weakness in itself????

Enuf said.....the saucer is overflowing now....so i better stop!!!