When the smoke is going down - Scorpions

When the smoke is going down..................................

Artist: Scorpions; Music: rudolf schenker; Album: Blackout; Lyrics:klaus meine

This article is a continuation to what Rohan had written earlier, which really inspired my thought and blogging. It is in continuation to “BECAUSE I CHOOSE TO..”

How many times have you felt, that you have been living your life to the fullest? How often you want to live life extreme?

Nothing is as satisfying as satisfaction - A personal satisfaction in a world where achievement is second hand. Achievement is synonymous to an act, duty or accomplishment that is approved, recognized and appreciated by someone else. So when people sit down to contemplate their achievement, the reflections are merely in terms of academics for the geeks, failure for the jerks, social-service for the politicians and promotion for a regular service class individual. Satisfaction is what you reach when you do something for none other but your own self. Anything extra that you may achieve is purely fluky and or just a consequence.

The other inspiration to this article comes from a song by Scorpions – WHEN THE SMOKE IS GOING DOWN. The song talks about the band scorpions who want to be on stage even after the audience have left. They want to be there for the love of it. They want to do it all over again only for themselves. Because they simply love it.

I cherish the moments when I have done things for myself, sitting outside the closed doors of the library late in the night, not because I wanted to complete a topic for the day but because I was enjoying studying the subject. My performance was only consequential. Or for the matter of comparison; spending nights in college to put up an event, the fun was only coincidental.

Do we truly love our work? Does it come out of our OWN choice? Or simply because we are entrusted the duty to perform a task, so we shall succeed if we manage to complete it. Till today, all that most of us have been doing is what the system has demanded from us. But it is only few distinct individuals who trace the self-made paths.

I wish I could belong to myself. Do a little bit not because I am required to do, but because I enjoy doing it. Yes, I want to be on the stage even when there is no audience. I want to do it for myself. I want to work for no men or organization but for myself. I wish I live a life like this every day. I wish my work will keep me occupied and fascinated till and beyond the time when the smoke is gone down, the lights have gone dim and the gates are closed. It will only be me and my work and loads of contentment…. How I wish??? The pursuit begins very soon…

Beginning of the End - One Last Time

Been long since I have written. Thought of it many times but didnt. I wont be able to live up to the standards of the last few posts but here goes....

The End has begun. My submissions are over, and am waiting for the exams to begin. Its that time of the year again when everyone is thinking of the amount of syllabus that is left to cover for the exams...For some it is the time to begin the revisions... for many, like me, it is the time to realise that we have insufficient notes and start hunting for them. But this is for the One Last Time.

Four years have gone by and it doesnt seem like a long time, but feels like a lifetime. When we began, we couldnt wait for it to get over and now we want some more time - not for the college work ofcourse but for the time we spent with friends.

We can split our entire life into 4 lifetimes - 1st the school life, 2nd junior college (albeit a short lived one), 3rd engineering college (or whatever course you do), and then the life after all this.

My school life was spent around the world (2 continents and 3 countries) - 2 years in Qatar, 2 years in Canada and 4 years in India. (I know that it adds up to 8 years, it is not a mistake. The remaining 2 years were spent between India and Qatar, not exactly sure how much where.) Out of these I hardly remember about Qatar and a little bit about Canada. My actual school life began in 1997 at St. Lawrence, Vashi where I met some of the best people I would ever meet - Sunny, Deepak and Aarohan. Thanks for being what you are. But the school life ended. Some friends were lost forever, some friendships were forged forever. But the memories remain.

The 2 years of junior college went by like a breeze. Got to do stuff that you couldnt do in school (like bunking lecs and going for a movie or openly flirting with girls). Had fun but didnt last that long. The college life ended too. But the memories remain.

Then came Engineering. The 4 years of copying assignments, completing the journals and doing the submissions on time. The running after the dumb profs for getting the experiments and assignments checked (here the hindi proverb applies perfectly - 'Kabhi Kabhi Gadhe ko bhi Baap banana padta hai'. I used to count the semesters as they got over ( i m sure every1 did).

And now the End of this life has Begun. But this End will be for the One Last Time. The new life that awaits us has no end. It ends only with our life. We have learnt a lot in our previous lifetimes and now we have to apply it. We shall be on our own now, no teachers to guide us and no dumb profs to act smart.

We got a few more days left but it seems too little. I want some more days, some more of the senseless waste of time that we did at leisure, some more of the carefree times spent with the friends, some more memories to cherish.......a little bit more....

But we have no choice. The new life awaits us. We have to greet it with Arms Wide Open and make the best of it. We have to face the End and a New Beginning..........for the One Last Time.