RAIT- The wonder Years

Hi guys, this post comes after a very weired time in my life, the last one was an outcome of a very depressed and frustrated state of my mind. Anyways, am back to normal, alive and kicking and yes getting bored and wondering what to do next and always ending up lazing arnd rather than dng smthng constructive.

But thats not the point I have in mind as I write here. This one is completely dedicated to my friends, my collegge friends as well as Sunny Junaid and Rohan. But since I have written about Rohan Sunny and Junaid in a previous post, I would tlk more abt my coll frnds here.

So guys, first of all thanks for being there(a typical line when u want to show gratitude, but nthng better than this). As the last sem is finally beginning, a strange realisation of the past always fills me when I am with u guys. All those moments we have spend together just keep playing as if a vdo being played repeatedly.

Earlier I never cared to enjoy the moments we had together in coll, for me coll was not more than IEEE and robotics. But since the last sem when I have 'retired' from all these activities, theres plenty of time to have fun, at least to be with u guys. I think I have started recognizing u guys a bit better, all because now I bother to care.

But as always I am late in dng good thngs, here I am realising all this when coll is about to end. The other day me and Abhishek were wondering how many of us will care to stay in touch after our coll finishes. And I really found the answer hard to fathom, that is when I realised how little I know about my frnds with whom I spend most of my time of the day. But still at least I know that I will care to stay in touch.

I was just browsing thru the pics and vdos we have shot in our engg days and I realised we all have changed a lot, physically of crse(from those timid FE's to care free BE's), but many other aspects as well. All of us have reached a new level of understanding, the pitty fights have reduced, they have transformed to hard core wars:). I have started appearing more in front of the camera, rather than always preferring to take pics. Most of us are 'committed' now. We all have graduated to gvng surprise birthday parties to everyone, most of us have stopped bothering abt results(except me, i never cared abt results), the meaning of coll has changed from a place to study(atleast we made sincere attempts for the first two years to do that) to a place to just escape from a harsh wrld outside and go inside a cocoon, a shelter with frnds arnd and a sense of protection and warmth.

Ppl have strted acquiring the status 'busy' on messenger, courtesy the permanent status 'committed'. I must tell u guys this committed status comes with a lot of packages attached. For eg. lots of profile fotos for orkut, to share on messenger. Ppl have strted going on shopping excursions just for 'her' or 'him'. These things were just dreams in FE and SE. But times have changed and they have changed for good. All these situations have kind of tied us tighter than we were before, made us more tolerant of each other.


And all this while I feel like I am a bystander, I never lived those moments of initial bonding with u guys, I was always there, but never connected. Again no regrets for that, I never wanted to get too involved with ppl, I always feared our friendship wud end before it even began.

But all that time has gone and has taught me a lot, u guys have taught me a lot. Thanks for all that. This might look like a farewell message, but honestly guys, every moment we spend tgether, seems like smthng is cmng to an end, which I want to hold onto, but cannot. So just wanted to make the most of the moments left, just wanted to thank u guys for being a part of the most wonderful years of my life.

It Begins......

Hi to all....Finally after 3 or 4 aborted attempts I am finally putting up a post. The name is Junaid (aka Junior as called by the other three 'distinct individuals'). What is about to follow will in all probability be incoherent ( this is bound to be the case with many of my entries) so please excuse me....

Before I begin with my crap, there two things that I would like to say....
1) The previous post by Deepak is no surprise to me as it is totally expected of him. It was sooner or later gonna find its way as a blog entry.

and 2) Deepak 'STOP' regretting all that you haven't achieved coz regretting isn't going to get you all that you missed!

The other day I was telling Deepak that I want to fly in the air, just jump off some really high point and fly. No worries, no thoughts, no desires, no regrets,.........nothing at all.....just me with the sky above and land below!!!!! And then it struck me.........3 months or so more and we step into the real world. The very thought brought me crashing down from my flight of fantasy.

Till now we were more or less insulated from the real world. We were safe from the worries of life.....the kind that our parents generally worry about!! And the inevitable question....Am I ready yet? I dont know....I am not sure.......


What could be worse than an engineering students life?........LIFE ITSELF!!!!!!


Today we have all the time we want to do all that we wish, we may not have it in the neat future. We meet our friends frequently. In the future we may not even find time to speak for days....All the responsibilities.....worries.....The thought sometimes makes wonder ' will I be able to face it all? '

Looking back I can see that it was not a bad journey up till this point of time in my life....a few ups and downs...a few hiccups...but I got here......There were a few things that I would have liked to achieved in the past but it is no use regretting.. (so Deepak you are not the only one who missed out on a few chances, it happens with everyone).

Here I would like to share a Few words that I came across....The hammer that breaks glass can also give a shape to steel. So it is upto you to be glass or steel...

Now that I think, life in the future may not be that difficult a journey....I have reached here...I can go ahead too.....

But then again......Am I ready yet? I dont know....I am not so sure.......Till then I want to continue with my flight through the air....no worries...no thoughts.......just me with the sky above and the land below........

ME- Beginning and the End

This post comes after a long time since Rohan wrote something here. I was a bit busy to write smthng good here for some days and then was too bored to vent it out here. I generally refrain from writing smthng here so that I don’t trouble poor readers with frustrations in my life.

But today when I was generally reflecting back on whatever has happened so far in my life, I just realised that it is equally important to share sadness and frustrations with others, which i restrict to a very few individuals in my life.

So I tght why not write it on the blog as well, let others know what brings sadness, dejection and regret.

So guys this one will be full of rantings about how bad my life has been so far, so if u r in a happy and joyous mood, plz dont read further and then curse me for spoiling ur mood..

Let’s make a list

I REGRET

1. not trying to get into IIT.

2. not being rich enuf to own a hard earned CAR(so far).

3. not being daring enuf to go out of the way to achieve my goals, considering they are a bit out of the way for a normal guy being born and brought up in a limited opportunity country like INDIA(again considering my interests like cars, electronics).

4. not being intelligent enuf, I need to work a lot more than many others(and less than many many others) to achieve something.

5. having an absence of luck all thru my life(i honestly do not remember any instance where I got help out of my luck, its just non existent in my life, good luck , bad luck both).

6. my family all tearing apart, never really disturbed me as a kid coz I never realised what I lost then, but now I realise what I wud have gained had it not happened. But again it was inevitable, and maybe happened for good (thats a universal justification for evrythng bad that happens, isnt it???).

7. all the circumstances making me so tough mentally that I am almost unmoved by any other human beings presence, everythng in my life is just abt ME. Its ME always first. So when I get too tired of ME, there’s no one else to relate to, coz I never allowed anyone to relate to ME.

8. understanding that in any relation a persons character is what matters, and not the relation tying u together. Thats why u will never see me asking for or doing smthng for someone by the excuse that he is my frnd or bro or sis. The reason will be he is Prasad or Sunny or Rohan or Sneha. The person is the reason, not the relation.

9. being a bit different from all the others I have come across. I agree every human is different from others, but I have made an effort all my life to be as diff as possible. I really dunno but I just tend to dislike any general behavior shown by ppl. I never feel like accepting the fact that general rules in a society can govern a persons existence. And that is the most prominent rule accepted by everyone. What I mean here is for eg. its accepted that u shud respect ur teachers coz they ' are teachers and they are elder to u' and on the contrary, recently its considered uncool and stupid to appreciate a professor if he is really good, then u r termed chaatu, sharif, padhaku and what not.

10. having a ‘dont mess with me’ kind of attitude and aura arnd myself, I have always been told this. Although I honestly never made an attempt towards this attitude, but rather its the outcome of my character and beliefs.

11. lacking the ability to speak, compliment and even scold others. I just dont know how to show care for others, coz I have really never cared for others, other than myself and very few ppl whom I like as a person. Again coz I never try to relate to ppl under the pretext of a relation.

And as I finish the list, I am also left with the feeling that some of the above stated reasons are also the source of all the content that I have in my life.

1. No luck- only hard work, so all that I achieve and lose is coz of me and not some divine unknown, unseen power. So my life is a result of my deeds alone.

2. My attitude- keeps away unwanted and stupid ppl.

See, so at the end its more regret than content. Well I guess this was supposed to be a vent out, so I am in no frame of mind to think abt good things in my life.

Sorry guys (especially Sunny, he will kill me for posting this after Rohan’s wonderful post, sorry dost). I wish to see something here soon by Sunny or Junaid.

But I am sure that ME will be the end of all my regrets as soon as I am able to justify all my actions and beginning of a wonderful and content life